haertbeat - 2pm ( english translation)

can you feel my heartbeat

the heart that you stepped all over and left
is still beating. and it's beating for you

no matter how hard i try to forget
no matter how many new people i meet
why do i keep thinking of only you when i turn around
i don't want to do this anymore. i want to stop.
no matter how many times i try and try to stop myself
it's no use. my heart is broken. why

why do i keep doing such foolish things
i know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
i'm holding on to you and can't let go.
it still feels like you're next to me.
i can't believe in farewell

no matter who i meet, i can't open up one part of my heart and i keep your place empty
there's no reason for you come back, but why do i keep thinking that you might come back
why isn't my heart listening

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
don't i know that it's over. i don't understand why i'm like this
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
it still hurts thinking of you. i think of you every time my heart beats

i have to forget. i have to forget in order to live
i have to erase it. if i don't, i'll die
stop trying to get her back. she ain't coming
she's gone, gotta be moving on
she left. she won't come back. she doesn't think of you.

she doesn't know that i'm waiting for her, she's doing well
she already forgot about me, totally erased me.
why can't i do that

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you

my heart is beating faster and faster (x4)

:)

Everybody said to heal a broken heart and move on from someone what you need is time, but I think that's not true. Cause I've been separated with you know who for 3 month now, but I haven't move one yet. Oke oke maybe the healing part is right, but not the move on part.

Do you guys remember that I said I want him to feel the pain that I feel?? Do you guys remember that I said I want karma to get him?? Do you guys remember I won't forgive him until he pay what he have done to me?? Well now I don't want karma to get him, I don't want him feel the pain that I feel, cause I know how much it hurts and i don't want him to feel that pain. I just wish him happiness, I wish he's happy with his new girl and I wish he treat her well.

Maybe all of you think "how the hell you can forgive someone like him?? How could you wish him for happiness" but guys when you love someone so deeply, you can forgive all the mistake they've done, no matter how bad it is and you'll forget about it.

I never thought I would love someone like this, I never felt like this before. But I'm happy cause now I can really let him go even I haven't move on yet.

See, my pain is healed but I haven't move on yet. its freakingly hard for me to move on from him. I think the only way for me to move on from him is I have to find someone who can replace him from my heart, but I haven't found that person yet. I wish I'm gonna find him soon :)

Dear s,
I wish you're doing well and you're happy with her now, treat her well okey :)

after all this time

After all this time, I'm still in love with you
After what you've done to me, after all the pain you gave to me, I'm still in love you
Yes I know I'm stupid, but I just can't lie that I still love you
I try to move on oh I try so hard, but I just can.

And now you're with another girl, it kills me to see someone is replacing me, it kills me to see you give your love to someone else,

But what can I do? Maybe we are not meat to be together,
Maybe I'm not good enough for you
Maybe I'm not the right person for you

And all I can do right now is wish you happines with her, all I can do is watch you from the distance, all I can do is tell my self that I need to move on from you

Even though you hurt me, even though you leave me, even though you're with someone else right now, I still love you S

its all just a mask

I can fool my friend with a smile and laugh that shows I'm fine , I'm oke, and I move on. But I can't fool my heart, I'm not okey, I'm not fine and I haven't move on yet. I still love that bastard but now I hate him to. But still I can't erase him 100% from my heart.

Until this day I couldn't find someone to take his place, even my best ex can't. All my friend said that someday I'll be back with pepe, but I don't want to. Is not that I don't love him anymore, its just I love as my bestfriend.

Every day I wear a mask that shows I don't care anymore with that bastard and I hate him to death. I still cried at night because of him, I still cannot believe the boy that I love so much can hurt me and treat me like this. Every time I see him my heart feels like its been stab with a knife.

But thank god I have k-pop, it helps me take my mind off him. Every time I watch my korean boy band video like shinee or 2pm, I forget about him and I don't feel any pain.

I kinda happy and glad that now I hate him so much, cause that mean I'm on my way to move on. All I need is patient and time to heal. In couple of month I will graduate from school and after that I won't see him any more, that will help the move on process

I never wish bad things would happen with him, but I never wish him well. Last week I hear he lost his blackberry, when I heard that news I'm kinda happy and my heart is laughing.

Hey s, just wait karma to get you. When she comes you'll be sorry for what you've done to me, you will feel what I feel, and it will be worst than mine. And by that time I'm the one who'll be laughing.

sorry but i just cant forgive you bastard

Well tadi malem si suryo bbm-in gw yang isinya dia minta maaf gw, dia bilang dia banyak salah sama gw dan dia minta gw maafin. Pas gw baca yang langsung terlintas di otak gw adalah "ha! Abis lo nyakitin gw , lo minta gw maafin lo? OGAH! Jangan harap" gw emang ga bisa maafin dia, udh gto minta maafnya lewat bbm dan dia juga minta maaf cm krn bentar lagi uan, sepak sepik doang itu.

Trs tadi di sekolah kan kita maaf-maafan gto, trs dia jg minta maaf ke gw lagi, tp ngga tau knp yaa gw ga bisa maafin dia. Gw mau tp gw ga bisa. He hurt me to much. Gw ga akan maafin dia smp dia ngerasain jadi gw, smp dia tau gimana sakitnya gw selama ini dan dia bener-bener ngerasa bersalah.

Dia to manusia paling brengsek yg pernah ada, muka plus tapi sifat minus. Sampah! Well suryo meybe I never wish you bad things , but I don't wish you well. Someday you will pay what you have done to me, you will feel what I feel and it will be more worse than what I feel right know, remeber that you bastard!!

realize

Well I just finish reading my whole blog, I just realize how stupid I am this past couple of month, why I said that? Because :

1. I choose suryo instead of pepe (the biggest mistake ever)
2. I've been played with that bastard and I still stuck with him(totaly stupid)

Now I just realize that suryo is a jackass, basterd, jerk and he didn't deserve to be love, especially by me. Thingking of him is only wasting my time . After I read all my blogs and think about all what he have done, I feel, in indonesia called "ilfil" I just question my self what in the world was I thinking back than. Why I leave someone so perfect like pepe for a bastard like suryo

Thank you God you showed me how bastard suryo is, and make me realize how pathetic I am this couple of month.

And one other thing that I've realize, I'm just to good for him hahaha

Happy supposed to be 4 month anniversary

Today supposed to be my 4 month anniversary with suryo prasetyo, well since we're not together anymore there's no anniversary. Its kinda sucks to know that my relationship with him only last for 3 month. when we were still together I though that will last at least a year cause back then I though he's a good guy so we can be together for a long period but sadly he's a cold hearted bad guy so it only last for 3 month

Hmm last month I gave him present for our 3rd month anniversary, but he didn't appreciated my gift . Hmmm I wondered does he kept my card? Hmmm I don't think so, he must have throw it away and put in a trashcan. He's such a jerk! I made that card by my self dude! Well not actually by my self cause I've got a little help from Acha but still I've made that and he didn't appreciated it AT ALL!

I never regret gave him present for our 3month anniversary even a day after it we broke up. At least I've showed him how much I love him. I'm sure someday if he remember all the things I've done for him he will regret what he have done to me. Like people said, regrets always comes late and what goes around comes around so someday he will feel what I feel

Well happy supposed to be 4 month anniversary suryo, I hope someday if you be a boyfriend again you will not hurt your girlfriend like you hurt me :)

he's the bad guy, not me

Guess what, I've been separated with suryo almost a month, but I still cannot take that lil bastard out of my head. Why it is so hard to move on from someone like him? Someone that hurt me so bad. I've tried to forget that he ever existed in my heart but I can't . Its like every time I make I big wall to stay my mind off him, it fall down every time I see him. This is not the first time I've been broken hearted, but I never felt like this before.

There's many question in my head, did he even know how I feel? Did he even know how bad my heart is hurt? Did he ever regret what he have done to me? Did he even felt guilty? But i think he didn't know, he never regret it and not feel guilty.

Sometimes I just wondered what went wrong? Was it my fault? Is it not enough what I've done for him? What have I done that make him loose his feeling to me? Why I'm so easy to forget? Am I not that worth it to be remind? Am that bad as a girlfriend?

But I've tried my best to be a good girlfriend, I just don't know why he suddenly don't love me anymore. I gave him the best of me, I gave him everything(not literally) .

Maybe for him what I've done is not enough, Maybe he thinks I just wasting his time.

NOO! What am I thinking! The problem is not me, but he is. He's the one that can't see how much I love him, he's the one that can't accept me as I am, he's the one that only see the bad side of me instead of the good side. He's the bad guy not me.

good bye s :)

Even though I try to hate you, but there still a part of my heart that loves you, need you and want you. But I know that couldn't and wouldn't happen. you know what? till this time, my feeling for you don't change a bit. I still love you. Now I'm trying to erase you from my heart. its hard, but I know I can do it. there's no use to hold on this feeling , cause its only gonna hurt me more and more. So I have to move on and accept the reality. and the only way so I can move on from you is I have to stay away from you.

Someday - Mariah Carey

Someday

Mariah Carey

You were so blind to let me go

You had it all but didn't know

No one you'll ever find will be

Closer to all your dreams than me

Believing the grass would be greener

You told yourself "I just don't need her now"

But I know you'll soon discover

You're never satisfied with any other

Someday

Oo someday

One you gave away will be the only one you're wishing for

Someday hey hey

Boy you're gonna pay 'cause baby I'm the one who's keeping score

You'll change your mind and call my name

Soon as you find they're all the same

And when you find yourself alone

Don't come back crying

You should have known

Believe me I'm not pretending

It's not hard to predict

This ending now

'Cause I know you'll soon discover

You're needing me in spite of all the

Others

if i ware a boy - beyonce

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

A Little Too Not Over You

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

A Little Too Not Over You - david archuleta

kaya lirik nya david archuleta yang gw tulis di atas, gw sangat sangat sangat sangat susah buat move on dari suryo, i dont know why i love him so much. kadang gw suka bingung kenapa giliran pacar gw jahat n nyakitin gw, gw saayaaaang bngd sama dia. tapi pacar gw baik kayaknya sayang gw biasa aja ke dia. kaya waktu gw sama pepe misalkan, dia kan baik banged to sama gw, tapi mana pernah gw selama 3 tahun pacaran sama dia, gw beliin dia kueh, bikin surprise, or bikinin bekel buat dia, eh pernah deh gw bikin surprise buat dia sekali pas 3tahunan. itu juga gw cuma beliin dia kemeja dan kueh dan gw dateng ke sekolahnya dia. itu petama kalinya gw bikin surprise buat dia. sedangkan sama suryo yang udah jahatin gw, gw beliin kue, bikinin bekel, ulang taun gw kasih surprise kecil2an dan kemaren pas 3 bulanan gw bikinin dia 3 hadiah. beda bangd ya perlakuan gw ke pepe sama ke suryo? aneh ngga sih?? kenapa ya kaya gto?

kadang gw suka berharap "ayo dong nyesel ke lo putusin gw and ajak gw balikan" tapi setiap gw mikir kaya gto, gw kubur to harapan gw dalem2. why? karna gw tau kalo itu ngga bakalan terjadi. gw ngga berharap yang macem dan pada akhirnya kenyataan ngga seperti itu, itu lebih nyakitin. gw udah berusaha kuat mungkin buat ngga mikirin dia, ngga merhatiin dia di kelas tapi gw ngga bisa. aduh jangan sampe deh dia tau keadaan gw yang kaya gini, jangan sampe. kata "the breakup book" kalo cowo tau mantanya masih sayang bangd sama dia , pasti dia langsung ngerasa kalo dia adalah segalanya buat mantannya. males aja gw kalo dia sampe ngerasa kaya gto. oke emang gw sayang sama dia, tapi dia bukan segalanya buat gw. gw masih bisa hidup gto tanpa dia.

OMG SHA! MOVE ON PLEASE!! NGAPAIN SIH LO MIKIRIN ORANG YANG NGGA SAYANG SAMA LO! NGAPAIN SIH MASIH SAYANG SAMA ORANG YANG UDAH NGENYIA2IN LO! SADAR DOOOOONG KALO DIA NGGA BIAK BUAT LO! (even i said like that to my self, i still cannot move on)

Destiny's Child - Survivor. lyrics

Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better,
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
But I'm stronger,
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
But I'm richer,
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder,
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
Now I'm wiser,
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
But I'm smarter,
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
But I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without ya,
Sold nine million.

[Chorus]
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what).

Thought I couldn't breathe without you,
I'm inhalin'
You thought I couldn't see without you,
Perfect vision,
You thought I couldn't last without ya,
But I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without ya,
But I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without ya,
But I'm on top,
Though it would be over by now,
But it won't stop,
You thought that I would self-destruct,
But I'm still here,
Even in my years to come,
I'm still gon' be here.


(Bridge)
I'm wishin' you the best,
Pray that you are blessed,
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna lie on you or your family, yo,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna hate you in the magazine,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna compromise my Christianity,
(I'm better than that)
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the Internet
Cause my momma told me better than that.


After all of the darkness and sadness,
Still comes happiness,
If I surround myself with positive things,
I'll gain prosperity.

Stuck - stacie orrico

"Stuck"

I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind

[Bridge:]
I ain't trippin
I'm just missing you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

You kept me hanging from a string
Why you make me cry?
I tried to give you everything
But you just gave me lies

[Bridge]

[Bridge 2:]
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..
I'm such a fool
For you

[Chorus:]
I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you [last time x2]
It's true
I'm stuck on you

im oke, hmmm even better

setelah beberapa hari abis putus, gw terpuruk dalam kesedihan (lebay) karena gw harus ngeliat si suryo SETIAP HARI, akhirnya gw udah mulai tebiasa. sekarang ngga ada lagi to rasa nyesek kalo ngeliat dia. thats good right?? ternyata bener kata temen gw, yang gw butuhin to cuma waktu untuk membiasakan diri. tapi bukan berarti dengan begini gw udah move on ya. kalo masalah perasaan mah gw masih nyangkut. ngga tau knp susah aja buat lupa sama dia. adaaaaaa aja yang bikin inget.

oiya kemaren masa kaka gw tiba-tiba ngetweet gw kaya gini "mellow amat, makanya kalo punya pacar(pepe) yang baik jangan di sia2in" hahah sialan bangd ya kaka gw, udah gto di Retweet lagi sama sahabat gw. hmm okey memang pepe udah baik banged buat gw dan gw udah nyia2in dia gto aja. mungkin orang2 banyak yang bilang gw bego atau apa lah karna udh nyia2in cowo sebaik dia. tapi ya udah laah mau gmn lagi, nasi udah jadi bubur. gw juga ngga nyesel ko lbh milih suryo dari pada pepe. coba kalo gw ngga milih suryo, mana mungkin gw bisa jadi sesabar ini dan sekuat ini ngedepin suatu masalah. yang gw nyesel adalah knp gw bisa sejahat itu sama pepe. dan akhrinya gw merasakan gimana jadi pepe hahahahha but thats fine with me, lumayan lah dapet pelajaran yang berharga. dan suatu saat nanti suryo juga bakalan ngerasain jadi gw, like i've said what goes around comes around weather you like it or not.

banyak temen2 gw yang bilang " alaaah paling nanti lo balikan lagi sa sama pepe" gw sih ketawa aja dengernya. tapi menurut gw kayaknya ngga bakalan tapi ngga tau juga sih, masa depan kan ngga ada yang tau, ya ngga? tapi untuk saat ini gw ngga mau (kaya pepe mau aja sa) why? karna gw takut kalo misalkan, MISALKAN gw balikan nih, gw bakalan balik lagi menjadi sasha yang manja, yang emosian dn ngga sabaran. karna pepe sangat memanjakan gw ahahahha. coba sama suryo, gw harus berjuang buat mandiri. emang deh dari setiap keputusan yang kita bikin, mau itu salah atau bener pasti ada sisi positifnya ko. bahkan gw bersyukur di giniin sama suryo, jadi gw tau kalo selama ini gw salah, dan gw berubah jadi jauh lebih baik.

thanks suryo, even though you hurt me but you make me stronger and wiser. thankyou very much

single ladies

gimana hari-hari gw sebagai single lady? horrible

gw kira gw bisa ngadepin ke-single-an gw ini, tapi ternyata ngga, hahaha gw bener ngga bisa mikir.

hari pertama abis putus gw nunjukin kalo gw fine2 aja, gw tetep ketawa kaya biasa, becanda kaya biasa. tapi hari ke dua gw udah ngga kuat, gw ngga bisa terus2an make topeng dan nunjukin kalo gw baik2 aja padahal kenyataannya gw ngga baik. gw pengen bangd nangis hari itu, dan gw pun nangis pas cowo2 lagi salat jumat. gw ngga kuat harus ngeliat dia setiap hari, gw ngga kuat ngeliat dia baik2 aja abis putus sedangkan gw udah kaya orang gila (lebay mode on hahaha) sumpah nyesek banged harus ngeliat dia kaya gto setiap hari. tau deh dia kaya gitu juga apa ngga ke gw. tapi gw rasa sih ngga.

tapi sekarang gw udah mulai membaik, thanks to rara yang minjemin gw buku "the breakup book"

abis gw baca itu gw sadar, kalo yang kehilangan to bukan gw tapi dia. kenapa kaya gto karna:

1. coba yaa mana bisa dia dapetin pacar kaya gw yang di ajakin ngomong apa aja bisa, smp ngomongin bokep pun gw jabanin.

2. dia ngga akan bisa dapetin pacar yang bisa nyambung sama temen2 dan sahabat dia.

3. dia ngga akan bisa dapetin pacar sesabar gw, bayangin aja gw di kacangin sama dia, dia suka sama sahabat gw sendiri tapi gw diem aja. coba aja cewe laen, yang ada bisa di semprot dia dan udah di putusin dari kapan tau.

emang sih gw masih sangat sering kangen sama dia, ada aja yang bikin gw inget sama dia, kadang suka kesel gw. ya mau gimana lagi namanya juga masih sayang, wajar aja sering keinget dan kangen. tapi ya meskipun gw udah di sakitin gto sama dia, gw ngga bisa sebel sama dia. smp sekarang gw masih sayang sama dia. aneh ngga sih?? aaah udah gw ngga mau ngomongin suryo lagi, its time for me to move on.

bye suryo prasetyo, i hope you're happy with you decision

the breakup day

hari selasa tanggal 16 feb kemaren gw 3 bulanan sama dia, gw udah nyiapin 3 hadia kecil buat dia. dengan niat semoga dia luluh and balik lagi kaya dulu. gw bikin kartu ucapan , parcel isi coklat dan yang terakhir gw bikin slideshow foto-foto gw sama dia. gw kira usaha gw bakalan berhasil bikin dia sadar, ternyata ngga. semuanya sia-sia. parcel coklat gw di bagi-bagiin ke temen kelasan kita dengan enaknya depan gw, dia bilang kalo makan coklat enek. gw cuma bisa pasrah aja ngeliatnya dn sabar. sampe pulang sekolah pun dia ngga ada to sms gw bilang makasih buat hadiah yang gw kasih, yaaa ngga usah itu deh ngucapin selamet 3 bulan aja ngga. gw udah bener cape, akhirnya gw mutusin kalo besok dia ngga berubah juga thats it. gw bakalan ngomong sm dia.

besoknya dia ngga berubah juga, okey itu tandanya hari itu juga gw harus ngomong sama dia dan minta dia putusin gw. temen-temen gw pada nanya apa gw siap, apa gw udah yakin sama keputusan gw. siap? sangat belom, yakin? yakin bangd, abis gw mau gmn lagi semua usaha gw ngga ngaruh apa2 sama dia.

pas pulang gw ngajak dia ngomong, gw tanya mau dia apa. awalnya dia masih bingung terus gw bilang "kalo emang mau putu gpp ko sur, aku ngga enak sama kamu. kamu mau bebas tapi keiket sama aku" gw juga nanya sama dia kenapa dia kaya gitu ke gw. dia cuma bilang "ga kenapa2 ko beneran deh" tapi gw ngga percaya, gw tanya lagi kenapa. dan ternyata alasannya CUMA karna dia lagi enak sendirian. akhirnya gw ngeyakinin dia mendingan kita berdua putus dan gw mau dia yang mutusin bukan gw. dan akhirnya dia bilang putus. single lah gw hari itu hahaha

to be continued .....

ps: to suryo, i just want to say thank you for allowing me to love you for 3 month, thank you cause you make me stronger and more wiser. sorry i can be the best for you.

I must be strong

My relationship with suryo become worse. one thing I am sure that he likes someone else. kenapa gw bisa bilang begitu? karna udah keliatan dari tingkah lakunya di kelas. orang yang dia suka temen sekelas kita juga, bahkan gw deket sama orang itu. lets call her cacat .

awalnya gw ngga yakin sama kesimpulan gw, gw mikir "ah paling ini perasaan gw doang" tapi makin lama gelagat dia makin mencurigakan. dia selalu deket sama cacat, sering ketawa bareng, ke kantin bareng, main rubic bareng. sedangkan sama gw ?? ngobrol aja jarang. tapi kemaren gw udah yakin, kenapa begitu? gw ngomong sama cacat. gw bilang " cat, kayaknya suryo suka sama lo deh hahah" si cacat awalnya kaget dan ngelak kalo suryo ngga mungkin suka sama dia. tapi gw bilang sama dia kalo yang mikir kaya gto bukan cuma gw, jem jem pun mikir kaya gto juga. akhirnya dia mikir dan bilang sama gw kalo emang akhir2 ini suryo aga aneh sama dia, suryo suka sms and ngechat si cacat yang isinya ngga penting, pernah TP-in pulsa padahal ngga minta, gambarin eeyore buat cacat padahal cacat juga ngga minta. nah setelah denger apa yang cacat bilang gw yakin bangd kalo suryo emang suka sama cacat. gimana perasaan gw pas tau ?? sakit hati iya, tapi gw lebih lega dengernya. karna dari apa yang cacat cerita dia ngga ngerespon sama sekali ke suryo.

gw sempet mikir buat nyerah and mutusin buat putus, tapi gw masih sayang banged sama dia. gw nanya sama sahabatnya suryo apa yang harus gw lakuin, kata dia gw harus posting aja dan terus kasih perhatian ke suryo. gw harus ngalah. hmmm gw pikir bener juga, ngapain gw negatif mikirnya nanti yang cape gw sendiri.

sekarang gw udah mulai biasa aja dengan semua tingkah laku suryo yang makin hari makin aneh. terutama sama gw. kita ngga pernah ngobrol lagi dikelas, ngga pernah duduk bareng, muka dia selalu ngga enak kalo ngomong sama gw. tapi gw tetep sabar and terus ngeyakini diri gw kalo gw bisa kuat ngadepin ini semua.

tadi gw cerita sama sahabat2 gw , gw cerita semuanya tentang gimana suryo sama gw sekarang, trs masalah dia suka sama si cacat. dan apa respon merek? gw di suruh putus. hahaha. menurut mereka ngapain lagio di lanjutin kalo yang ngejalanin hubungan ini cuma satu pihak. tapi gw ngga mau. knp gw ngga mau?? karna gw sayang sm dia dan gw ngga mau putus. gw mikir gini aja, yaa biarin dia kaya gini ke gw , suatu saat nanti dia pasti sadar kalo apa yang dia lakuin ke gw itu salah dan dia akan nyesel. gw mikir positifnya aja, kalo dia ngga giniin gw gw ngga akan jadi sekuat ini dan sesabar ini. gw sangat sangat yakin, meskipun suryo suka sama orang lain, tapi di dalam hatinya masih ada gw. dan gw bakalan nunggu dia balik lagi sama gw.

gw ngga peduli dia suka sama orang lain ke, dia cuek ke sama gw. yang penting gw sayang sama dia dan gw perhatian sama dia. thats all!

baru tau yaaaa?

heh buat orang yang namanya suryo prasetyo, kenapa lo males sama gw gara-gara gw ngambek terus? gara-gara gw ngambek lo main rubic?? lo kira enak apa di kacangin haa?? gw ngomong ngga di tanggepin, lo focus sama rubic tercinta lo itu. mending ya kalo main sekali sekali. tapi lo tu mainnya EVERYTIME . baru gw kaya gini aja udah males lo. apa yang lo rasain to ngga ada apa-apa nya sama apa yang gw rasain waktu lo NYUEKIN GW! lo ngerasa lo sabar ngadepin gw?? gw jau lebih sabar ngadepin lo!

ada ngga gw males sama lo waktu itu?? padahal lo udah nyuekin gw ?? apa perlu gw ingetin lagi lo kaya apa waktu dulu?? lo ngga ada perhatiannya sama sekali boy. gw dikacangin, di cuekin, tapi apa gw males sama lo?? ngga! gw pendem semuanya! giliran gw utarain semua apa yang gw rasa ke lo, tanggepan lo cuma" ya aku emang gini sa orangnya, pengen di bawa santai aja"

gw udah cukup sabar ngadepin lo. lo ngga pernah nanya kabar gw, lo nyuekin gw, lo ngga ada inisiatif nganteri gw pulang, ngga ada pergatian sama sekali, tapi apa gw males sama lo?? NGGA!!

sekarang silakan lo bandingin deh apa yang lo rasain sekarang sama yang gw rasain, sama ngga?? apa yang lo rasain ngga ada apa2nya ya sama yang gw rasain, INGET ITU!!